Sunday, May 22, 2011

I Must Go Away So That The Comforter Can Come To You...

I have experienced this before, this feeling of being forsaken. I have felt alone in meditation without the warmth of the Christ. I asked why and H. Emilie Cady led me right to the answer that I already knew, but had forgotten. "I still have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth; for he will not speak on his own but will speak whatever he hears, and he will declare to you the things that are to come."

"It is to your advantage that I go away, for if I do not go away, the Advocate will not come to you".
"And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Advocate to be with you forever...Because he abides with you, and he will be in you."

This is an inner spiritual birth to each one, a consciousness of an indwelling Christ ever present within him to be his guide and teacher. ~H. Emilie Cady

To me this feels like He is saying that I need time to absorb what He has taught me as I sat at His feet in the silence. He needs to go away for awhile so that I may really understand what He has taught me. He always comes back stronger and more powerful after these times of absorbing His truth. There is always a resurrection. Everytime this happens my own indwelling Christ becomes stronger and more able to take care of me, all the truth I have been given goes straight to my Christ self and it grows and matures until it fully awakens just as Jesus' own Christ nature did. That last sentence by the way was totally typed by my higher self, I love when this happens, that was not in my brain and it just flowed right out onto the keyboard from wherever it came from. Love.

Yesterday in meditation I felt led to meditate on the phrase "abide in my love". I looked up abide and here is what Websters has to say...

transitive verb
1: to wait for : await
2a : to endure without yielding : withstand b : to bear patiently : tolerate
3: to accept without objection
intransitive verb
1: to remain stable or fixed in a state
2: to continue in a place : sojourn
— abid·er noun
— abide by
1: to conform to
2: to acquiesce in

abide in the house of the Lord
a love that abided till the end of their lives
Now his anger had poisoned all relationships, no one could be put in the two empty beds in the room, and not even his long-suffering sister could abide him in her house. —Peter Pouncey, Rules for Old Men Waiting, 2005

So, today I am abiding in His love. I am starting to feel His presence again. I notice that when I have an outpouring of the Holy Spirit my diet improves for a time and when He goes away for a time, my food choices are less good. I am less forgiving at these times when He goes away, I see more of the bad and I complain more. And when the comforter comes things get infinitely better. I am on the mend. I was lost but now I am found.

I also found this to be helpful...

John 16:1-16

Persecution will come

•1. Don’t let persecution cause you to stumble in your faith
•2. Those who persecute you will think that they are working for God
•3. They persecute you in the name of God but they don’t know God
•4. I want you to remember these words when the persecution comes
The Holy Spirit will come

•5-7. I must go away so that the Comforter can come to you
•8-11. He will reprove the world of sin, righteousness, and judgment. Sin because they don’t believe in me; righteousness because I am going to my Father; and judgment because evil will be judged.
•12-14. He will teach you many things that I cannot teach you now.
Jesus will come
•15-16. Yes, I am going to the Father; but you will see me.

I have felt persecuted this past week and I know it's my own thoughts clinging to false concepts about myself, it's my ego going but still kicking and screaming. "I will not be ignored Dan". Dan is ignoring you. I am denying the appearance of this seeming evil and affirming the truth.

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